Well dear readers, here we go again. The really silly thing about this entry is that at the top of the page I wrote 'Is love not the best thing of all?' In light of my current situation, I would really like to go back and throttle my teenage self! She is partially to blame for all this! Anyway..on to the meat.
2-28-89
Today was such a routine day, but it wasn't. (oh for fucks sake, here we go. let me guess, you fell in love?) I guess it just sort of felt like it. It was my friends b-day. We gave him a bunch of stuff during first period and he was really embarrassed. I think he really appreciated it though. (yes, because everyone appreciates being embarrassed) He said that his parents forgot. They were probably saving it until after school. I hope so, it would really suck if my parents forgot my b-day. They never have before. (sixteen candles anyone?)
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Lately I have realized that Duke is getting old. (crap, now I'm going to start crying) He won't live much longer. I'm really sad about that. (you have no idea how devastated you will be. you will cry for years and miss him forever) He is such a big part of me. I love him so much. He has been with me most of my life. Nine years so far. I believe that is how old he is. He might last through my high school years but I doubt it. (sadly you were right. he only made it two more years. what an amazing dog he was) He's not an abnormally healthy dog and the average age for small dogs is about 10-13 years. (where did I get that info?) I don't know how I'd react. (you cried for weeks. you couldn't take your finals. it was awful) I get tears in my eyes just thinking about it. Maybe I love him too much. (not possible. dogs deserve every ounce of love we have and more) It can't be good for me but then again neither is coffee. (did you just compare your love for your amazing best friend to coffee? you are seriously a freak)
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I wonder if you know how much I admire you. I'v (yes I apparently couldn't spell I've) always wanted to be just like you. To me, you are perfect. (considering I know who I was writing this too I have to laugh really hard at myself)
