20th entry

Let's see what ridiculous thoughts I recorded this time.

     20th entry   11-7-88

     Well Kian bought me some 'reds'. (I guess this was my slang for Marlboros. Got what a horrible place to start. Not even lights, I went straight to being a cowboy) He doesn't seem to care very much. He just told me that I shouldn't. (why, why didn't I listen??) I also double pierced my ear last night. Mom and Baba haven't noticed, again. (I guess I must have done it one other time?) Zack is my boyfriend now. (i'm sure you have all rolled your eyes like I did) He's really nice and I like him so I figured why not? (much more eye rolling going on here) He obviously likes me too. (well I should hope so nitwit) We went out with Kevin, Dan Melissa, and Amy today. We were going to go to Paramount Imports (can anyone believe that place is still in business? it was like the Mecca for all things blacklight, goth, and stoner and it looks exactly the same today as it did 16 years ago) but we ran out of time. Oh-Well. It would have been fun. I am really changing. (not really, no you aren't) I cut 5th period last Thursday. Dan, Kevin, Zack, Melissa, and I went out after lunch. We went to Dan's house so that he could change then we went to Kevin's house and watched the end of Good Morning Vietnam. It was a real blast. (at least we had good taste in movies) They are really fun to be with. They accept me as one of their equals. (snort. Really, I just snorted) They only pick on me once in a while (as compared to who?) and I can handle it. I think this will be a great year. (i'm fairly sure you already mentioned that)


Any why not add one more? I'm feeling flush with the triumph of finding the large green spiral bound notebook I was looking for.

     21st entry   11-16-88

     I know I haven't written in a while but I've been lazy and sick. I caught bronchitis again. (man, I was always sick because of bronchitis) It's not going well with Zack. He seems to be ignoring me. Maybe hes just too occupied with other things but he still hangs all over Gretchen. (Grrr! Gretchen. you poor thing, she is always stealing your boyfriends throughout high school. she eventually gets your 'first' to cheat on you and you will spend years making even more bad decisions about men because of it. Feh on her) I'm still very in love with Jesse. (wait, not Zack?) He told me that when he turns 16 he's going to run away. (because that is such a mature age to set out on your own) If he does I want to go with him. I told him that and he said he'd take me. (oh the stupid dreams of teenagers are so annoying!) I love him so much that sometimes it hurts.

I can barely keep up with all the guys I was supposedly in love with. It is kind of funny that I totally remember (almost) all of them. I was so completely convinced each and every time that this was the love of my life.